Head Space

I snatched this idea from my friend Abby’s blog. I do realize that some of these are pretty transparent, but even if you think it’s about you don’t ask. I’m not telling. This is a lot harder than I would have thought. I have to list things I’d never say to the actual person. What wouldn’t I say? Anything to my children is out, because they know down to the bone how much I love them and how they are the light of every day I’m alive. Anyway, here it goes:

The Rules:
* List ten things you want to say to people, but know you never will.
* Don’t say who they are, use people only once.
* All who read this can choose to post in their own blog (no have-to’s for memes, please).

My list:

1. Your child looks just like Squiggy from “Laverne and Shirley.”

2. I never would have made it without you.

3. I never thought we’d be close, but then life is full of awesome surprises. Our friendship is one of the brightest spots of my adult life. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

4. I will never forgive you. Not for all you did, but for everything you continue to add to it. I know that someday they will get it, too.

5. You never had my back and I doubt you ever will. You make bad decisions and then can’t even own up to the consequences. You are weak and don’t deserve my respect.

6. It really hurts that our friendship has never been as important to you as it has always been to me.

7. No matter how much time passes I still love you and wish things had been different. Timing is everything.

8. I hate being indebted to you. It makes me feel insecure and like a failure.

9. You’ve given me reason not to trust you. Still, I can’t help but be drawn into your sense of life and fun and be encouraged and inspired by it.

10. You gave me so many gifts (tangible and not) that I still enjoy. Thank you.



The good thing about this list is that no one reads my blog so I won't be getting a lot of questions. WooT! I'm so sneaky. haha!!

Minutia

This morning after parking my Jeep I was walking along the sidewalk to my building and I noticed a little chickadee in a pine tree. He was doing a little dance. Then I noticed the female nearby. He was doing a little mating dance for her and she was certainly checking him out. I didn’t linger, but it was fun catching their little courtship.

CONGRATS TO ZOE!!!

SHE WON!! SHE WON!!

Congrats to Zoe!! She rocks!

HEADLINES

Just in case you missed it on the news...

We are still in Iraq. There are still U.S. forces dying everyday. There are still civilian and allied forces dying in record numbers. We are still in Afghanistan. And we still don't have Osama Bin Laden (remember him?)

Oh yeah, Saddam Hussein refused to enter a plea today. Anyone see that on the news? Probably not if you were looking at U.S. news.

However, somehow criminals are coming to pick our crops and do our day labor in record numbers and must be stopped at ALL costs! Yeah, I didn't post a link. It was all over the goddamned place and if you missed it you can just hit CNN or FOX or whatever news channel you prefer to catch up on that one.

My question is...

Does anyone really eat the serving size voluntarily?

warm, wet, green...*sigh*

When I dream of a place to call home forever I don’t really think of Denver. Everyone seems to take this as me not liking Denver, but that’s not exactly true. I do really like Denver. There are things to do here that I can’t do anywhere else. It’s a good place for my children to be. Perhaps I’m not articulating myself very well. When I close my eyes and I think of all the places I truly have fallen in love with they have some things in common. Vegetation is a good start. Stockholm, Cape Town and Atlanta all have a lot of greenery and vegetation that I love. They have gardens that completely envelope. Also, they are all either on the water or not that far from it. There is something about being able to go to the ocean and have it just relax me that I can’t seem to get from any other source. Atlanta isn’t very far from the ocean so even a trip ever 6 months is easy. I miss the water. I didn’t grow up around any water, but somehow it’s come to be such a cleansing thing for me. I need that. Also, these places have some humidity. I miss feeling humidity. I miss the way warm wet air caresses my skin and makes me feel warm all the way through and not just on the surface. So, today I am dreaming of Cape Town and how I’d love to wake up to the green warmth that climate can provide. And yes, I do know that it's almost winter there.